February 04, 2012

spring



Musim semi baru kembali setelah musim dingin yang terasa amat sangat dingin sampai seluruh tulangku melinu. Aku senang akan kehadirannya. Hidup baru dimusim yang baru akan kuuntai sedalam kalimat syahadat yang telah kuucapkan berbulan yang lalu. Keluargaku kini sudah menerimaku sebagai seorang muslim. Setiap kali yang kurasakan bukan lagi hal yang semu, aku tahu Allah selalu ada disetiap waktuku. Beribu jalan aku pernah tempuh, aku katakan sangat berat untuk meyusurinya dan aku telah mengetahui dan terbukalah jalan itu.
                “Mom, maaf aku baru bisa kembali hari ini” kataku kepada wanita paruh baya berambut pirang dihadapanku. Ia adalah ibuku, Marianne Walter, aku sangat menyayanginya meskipun kami telah berbeda iman aku tetap menyayanginya dan ia yang utama setelah Allah dan RasulNya.
“Ya, tidak apa. Kau pasti sangat sibuk dengan kuliahmu, ya kan?” tanyanya begitu sangat lembut suaranya.
Saat perubahan hidupku, ibukulah yang paling menentangku. Ia dan keluargaku sangat menentang karena mereka memandang image Islam sangat buruk. Dinegara kami, Islam sangat ditakuti dan identik dengan kekerasan tapi, tidak bagiku sejak kejadian yang menimpaku malam itu.
“Muhammad?” panggilnya terhadapku, ucapannya masih belum fasih melafalkan nama

January 18, 2012

Your Love



Bring these surprises to you room.
I will you come back to me.
Although, it’s little bit impossible.
I beg you be my last in my live.
I admit give you best, I should not hurt you, I settled you by my clearest mind
I learn to live happily.
I’d rather give my love.
          All the things I have (all about you) are never broken
          I dare you,
          I miss you so much
          I need you in my side
          Sitting here, hugging me and promise you’ll never leave me.

All poems are nice to be remembered, I knew you’re still persuade your dream. These time will never come back I agree you wished all best for you living. I’m away from you, I do for you. You admit I’d come back to you. These nights seems like the mourning. You’ve gone to Paris since three years ago, really I miss you. I said you’ll come back soon and I say yes to wait you. I’m here to stay when these days are going to be ended, it’ll be without you. I pray you’d reach your ambition. We’re far I wished you’d be better.
            Can you imagine, if we loved to someone and the someone goes away from us. Do you feel right? It’s happened in me.,, yeah, It’s happened. You’re my love.
Have you ever knitting the brighter day?
I write our name, in our paradise.
If we love somebody could we’ll be these strong?
I will fight to win our love will be conquered all
Wouldn’t risk my love even just one night, our love will stays in my heart.
Even can you imagine, I hide everything the mourn.
It’ll never be like the past. I lost you. It tells us about the real love, long lasting love.
Did you ever imagine, if I will never be with you again? 

January 06, 2012

story break

Cause the last time you saw me, it's still burned in back your mind.
At the last our meeting, we should have different sight of each thing.
I know we know, we've been growing up.
Do all we want, hide everything our secret.
i saw you from my back you went back to your way.

December 23, 2011

To Be Yours, I'll Pray

"and i lead my head back down
and i lift my hands and pray, to be only yours
i pray to be only yours. and i know now you're my only hope.

i give you my destiny, i'm giving you all of me
i want your symphony singing in all that i am"


maknanya sangat dekat, menjurus.
meneruska inspirasi dan rasa yang ada didalam sini.
ya, mungkin bagi orang lain agak berlebihan. namun, itulah apa adanya.
untuk seseorang disana. I'll pray for you. I'll pray to be only yours.

December 09, 2011

Produktivitas Menurun

tulisan-tulisan jarang lagi keluar dari indera.
Menghadap dunia yang penuh warna.
oh my inspiration please come back to me
back to my days
back to inform the world
how wonderful you are...